EVERY DAY IS HALLOWEEN.

i had a surprisingly busy halloween. i had originally made some big plans in my head about going to london but then i got even more broke (yay) and also the thing i wanted to go to sold out (and i hadn't even considered i might need to get a ticket in advance) so i had to stay in medway. but i'd booked saturday off (i always work saturdays these days, ewww) and i kept that plan at least. i had to go to work on friday instead, and after work i ran around getting last minute things for a costume and also checking out halloween wares cos it's year round decorations / houseware for me, and eventually got home with pizza and cheap white facepaint. i went to a gig my local friends organised on friday dressed as a skeleton. (my original costume plans also fell through due to lack of ££££ and time / resources) i put on heaps of £1 white facepaint i got from wilkinsons (NEVER AGAIN. it was really thin and covered fuck all and shrunk when it dried and thus hurt my face and ooh it cracked so much. next time i need to paint my face, pls remind me of this and tell me to get the good stuff.) and black eyeliner. i did an ok job but the eyeliner coverage wasn't brilliant. luckily i'd bumped into suze (ex-sean bean death scene drummer, and one of the people putting on the gig) in poundland and she told me she was bringing all the facepaints with her & i could borrow some if i didn't manage to finish my face at home, so i used some of her black facepaint to top up on the eyesockets while she finished off her twisty the clown make up. i took some pictures of the bands of course but i'll post those another time i think.. (i also took pictures of some of the other costumes but it was dark and my little camera hates people and mostly made people look less amazing than they did in real life.. ugh. i miss having a dslr that works)

saturday i was going to edit the photos, watch something spooky in my pyjamas and chill. i got up pretty late (didnt get home til 2am but that's more or less my usual bedtime these days anyway) and while i was browsing through my facebook feed, i noticed that Rochester Flea was happening that day. it's the last saturday of every month but since i've been working pretty much every saturday i haven't been away for something i haven't been able to go for months, if not more than a year? i mean, it's not like a 'real' fleamarket where you can find lots of crap with something really amazing thrown in for 20p cos the seller just wants to get rid of their old crap, it's more of an craft fair + vintage / antique fair, but it's pretty cute and nice people i know and hardly ever see go there. so i mulled it over for a bit, had breakfast and got dressed and decide FUCK IT i'll go out despite being tired, a bit on the grumpy funover side and too broke to buy anything (the main danger of going outside) and you know what, NO REGRETS. i took some nice pictures and i saw people i havent seen in a while and got a proper pep talk from someone (honestly, i needed that ♥) and i managed to NOT SPEND A PENNY. to be honest i didn't really see anything i really wanted or needed. anyway, here's some pictures from the flea market and shop windows etc that were actually decorated for halloween and so on.

flo makes cool things at ursaminor.cc

zara's best evs butt earrings and matching butt necklace.
when she makes some more, i think i def need one/some. cos butts are best.

on my way home from rochester i bumped in to my friend abi. she used to play guitar in my old band sean bean death bean. she invited me & carl to come over to hers later, she had people coming over and she was going to make pumpkin pie once she got home. and also she told me one of her cats (the one i hadn't met yet) was wearing a skull hoodie cos she's got some ailment ive forgotten the name of and she keeps scratching it. carl had been at work all day and was working on sunday so i knew he wouldn't be up for any socialising but i said i'd see if i could make it. i made some tasty as heck mac & cheese for dinner and since leaving the house earlier had worked out so well i decided fuck it, i'm going to go out again, and put on my favourite dress and while i waited for my phone to charge drew spider + spiderwebs on my face and attached some sparkly spiders in my hair. i couldn't be arsed to do halloween again Properly, and besides i'd kinda run out of the shit white facepaint anyway. and tbh i wasn't sure if anyone would be dressed up at abi's or not. but i still felt like doing _something_ since i 500% definitely care about halloween.

it was a pretty chill night. i arrive just in time cos there was ONE MORE PIECE OF PUMPKIN PIE LEFT. win. i didn't get too many kitty hangs but little dude (the one with the skull hoodie) was feeling a bit disgruntled cos of the hoodie and just stayed up out of reach on top of the fridge / bookshelves. she's the more sociable one of the kitties. nyx & ishtar aren't mega fans of crowds and mostly stayed in the bedroom. tbh they're not that into snuggles anyway. i got home about 2am again. with a copy of Sandman volume one. (i have a lovely habit of coming home from abi's with a book in my bag, usually one by neil gaiman. still need to return Neverwhere. will do it next weekend when it's her birthday and she's putting on a gig..)

anyway i have been 'writing' this blog entry all fucking week and i'm kind of sick of it and i want to get on with my life / write about something else soon (or not, though ive actually had some ideas etc etc) so this is it. see you later.

ps. nii ja tällä kertaa en jaksa suomeksi yhtään mitään sori not sori whatevör

i did a new zine.

YOUR PRETTY FACE IS GOING STRAIGHT TO HELL #22 ♥ ♥ ♥ £1 + P&P. 16 PAGES.

for this shorter than usual issue of your pretty face.. i asked my friends for writing prompts / what they would like to read about via twitter and ended up writing about my garden, mummy parcels, the x-files and snack time.

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i'm also up for trades in the uk cos ugh postage abroad is ££££ and i'm broke.

(though maybe we could trade several issues? talk to me anyway!)

email me at tukrulovesyou (at) gmail (dot) com

niin no viime kerrasta on taas aikaa mutta blah blah blah samat vanhat tekosyyt niistä joskus myöhemmin. mie kävin viime viikonloppuna leedsissä zinefestailemassa. kuten yleensä mie en ottanu kuvia melkein mistään paitsi mun pöydästä ja vietin koko päivän pöytäni takana lähinnä yksin. jostain kumman syystä melkein aina kun järjestäjät järjestävät pöytäjärjestyksen, minä päädyn kauas kavereista ja mulla on superyksinäinen olo vaikka huone on tyylin täynnä kavereita. ja minähän en ikinä tuo pöytä seuraa kuten moni muu. me tehtiin ystäväni kirstyn kanssa sopimus että ensi kerralla pyydetään että ollaan vierekkäin tjsp. tuntuikohan se vaan pahemmalta tällä kertaa kun tapahtuma oli yllättävän hiljainen? leedsillä oli punk ja DIY taivas maine joten ois luullu että siellä zinet yms olisivat super suosittuja. enpä tiiä. ehkä ihmiset ei vaan tullu meidän nurkkaan (mulla oli selkä loppuhuonetta kohti joten en oikein nähny että mikä oli meininki...) tai ehkä se että uusi isompi tapahtumapaikka ei ole keskustassa kuten aiempi mesta vaikutti asiaan. en tiiä. mutta hei kyl mie varmaan menen ensi vuonna taas :D

so yeah it's been a while since my last blogpost but blah blah blah whatever same old excuse i might mention later on. or not. last weekend i popped up to leeds to do some zine festing. as usual i didn't take photos of anything other than my table really and spent most of the day alone behind my table (i did manage to get quite a bit of crochet done. which did lead to me running out of wool on the megabus home. oops.) for some reason usually whenever zinefest organisers assign the table locations i almost always seem to end up on the opposite side of the room from all of my friends and being lonely as fuck even though the room is technically full of my friends. and i never bring any tabling company (just my knitting) me and my friend kirsty made a deal to ask to be put next to each other next time we table at the same thing. (might be a while now though...) i might have felt extra lonely not only cos i was feeling extra emotionally fragile (yay!) but also cos the event seemed surprisingly quiet? leeds kinda has a reputation of being a punk & diy haven so you'd think zines etc would be super popular. i dunno. maybe it was actually busy but people just didn't wander into our corner and i just couldn't tell cos my back was facing the rest of the room... or maybe the change of venue had something to do with it? left bank was lovely and much bigger but it isn't in the city centre like wharf chambers and probably a little harder to get to... i dont know. it was still a good zinefest though, no organisational complaints, and i broke even, just about. but considering how broke i am in real life, i could have really done with better sales. (apparently it wasn't just me, my friends did mention not doing 'as good as usual' on the sales part. but hey we don't do these things for the £££ but it helps. i hate to sound like i'm obsessed with the capitalist side but ££ is a big deal when you're broke. it's easy to not give a fuck about money when you dont need to worry about paying your bills) anyway here's some pix?

mie suunnittelin ottavani 'zinefest style' asukuvia kaikista tyylikkäistä immeisistä, street style blogien tyyliin mutta hups mie unohdin noin viisi minuuttia idean ja ekan kuvan jälkeen. kunnes oli melkein aika pakata ja mennä kotiin ja otin äkkiä kuvia kavereista. hupsan. mutta tässä on ottamani kuvat :D

i was totally going to take 'zinefest style' photos of all the people who looked extra fierce, like street style blogs but i completely forgot after i took the first one until half an hour before closing time oops. but here's some of the zinefest style photos i did take :D

i'm so sorry forgot your name! (if this is you let me know and i'll link to your whatever :D ) and sophie aka snapdraws

kirsty of hard femme ♥ ♥ ♥           kate rosanne of a bunch of things! ♥ ♥ ♥                         ermm... and me!

polttaa kesäkatu apatia / summertime apathy ♫ ♪

melkein kaksi viikkoa vanha asukuva kun oli pakko helteellä käydä kaupungilla aaargh. ♥ ♥ hattu = primark ♥ toppi = select tai primark, en muista enkä jaksa tarkistaa ♥ hame = hell bunny via tiger milly ♥ sukkikset = h&m ♥ kengät = new look ♥ kassi = monki ♥ trust no man kaulakoru = ebay

about two week old outfit photo from when i had to go to town during the damn heatwave ugh. ♥ ♥ hat = primark ♥ crop top = select or primark, can't remember or be arsed to check ♥ skirt = hell bunny via tiger milly ♥ tights = h&m ♥ shoes = new look ♥ bag = monki ♥ trust no man necklace = ebay

en tiedä mikä tässä on jumittanut mutta kirjoittamisesta ei ole tullut mitään viime aikoina :( täällä on ollut helle joka ahistaa ja kaikissa vaatteissa on kuuma ja hiki ja yyh. töissä on ollut päävälineet rikki niin ei ole sielläkään tullut käytyä. tässä kuussa olen nyt ollut jopa tähän mennessä kaksi päivää töissä. (lauantaina ja tänään) onneksi helle nyt hellitti viime viikon lopussa. ei tartteny töihin mennä pahimmillaan. vahinkolomalla ei tullut tehtyä juuri mitään jännää. olen hakenut uutta duunia (ei mitään onnea sen kaa tietenkään) aloin virkkaamaan ja nyt on ihan kuin olisin virkkaamiseen koukussa (ha ha ha) leiponut banaanileipää ja brownieita (oh parasta) katsonut lähinnä steven universeä ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ tuijottanut tyhjää sivua ja hikoillut paljon. jee jee jerry cotton. niin ja olen vähän aloittanut uuden bändin uuden ystävän O:n kanssa (kiitos facebook) meillä on ollut kahdet treenit meidän olkkarissa ja meillä on jo neljä biisiä joissa on musaa & sanat (vain yksi on vanha) ja yksi mistä puuttuu sanaa + melodia. ja minä onnistuin soittamaan JA laulamaan sunnuntaina vielä suhtiinsa tuntemattoman henkilön edessä (me nyt ollaan hengattu/tavattu vasta nämä kaksi kertaa) nyt jostain tarttetaan rumpali! tai O on sen verran taitava että jos ei rumpalia löydy, hän voi soittaa rumpuja koska kitaristeja on yleensä helpompi löytää. asiasta vois nyt tehdä jotain pikku hiljaa... edellisen bändin kitaristilla oli joku leidi rumpali vihje, pitäis varmaan kysellä. mulla on tästä tosi hyvä fiilis mutta usein unohtuu että bändistä on ihan oikeasti tulossa totta.

i dont know what it is with summertime and writer's blocks with me. it's not like i've been busy doing anything. this month so far i've only been to work twice saturday and monday just gone) cos the main printer is broken so there's not much for anyone to do other than tell people sorry we cant do your eight shitty pictures off your iphone on the spot cos we're saving our back up printer's ink for passport photos. sucks for my paycheck but it's also been a relief cos my unplanned almost two weeks off managed to land on the heatwave. like, it's just cooled down as i had work again. (that shop gets really fucking warm and i don't really own any work appropriate heatwave clothes for reasons unknown) i've been mostly hunting for a new job (with no success obvs) i got into crocheting and it's almost like i'm hooked (lol puns) ive been baking banana bread and brownies (yum) mostly watching steven universe ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ and staring at blank pages and sweat a lot. oh yeah. and i've kinda started a new band with a new friend (O) i made via facebook. like for real. we've had two practices in my living room and we have four real songs with musics and words and stuff (only one was old / already existed) and one that needs words & melody. and on sunday i managed to play bass AND sing at the same time, in front of still a relative stranger. so that's pretty cool. now we just need to find a drummer. or a new guitarist, cos O is super talented and can also play drums if need be.

tässä noitamainen päivän asun eiliseltä kun kävin töissä. onneksi oli vähän kylmempi päivä eikä tullu törkee hiki. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ hattu, leggingsit & sukat = primark ♥ ♥ pitsimekko = select ♥ ♥ kengät = new look ♥ ♥ kassi = monki ♥ ♥ deathly hallows kaulakoru = ebay ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ tämän asun joku variaatio on jo taidettu näyttää ainakin kerran (ellei moneen kertaan) (eikun en nähtävästi ole tätä ollenkaan, edes vanhassa osoitteessa. mitä helvettiä?) mutta tämä on mun paras mekko. toisen mustan pitsimekon pitsi meni ihan paskaksi parin pesun jälkeen mutta tämä on hyvempää laatua. ja molemmat on samasta kaupasta.

here's my witchy outfit of the day from yesterday when i went to work and stuff. luckily it was not hot and i didn't get all sweaty & uncomfortable. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ hat, leggings and socks = primark ♥ ♥ black lace dress = select ♥ ♥ shoes = new look ♥ ♥ bag = monki ♥ ♥ deathly hallows choker ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ i was pretty sure i'd already posted some variation of this outfit (the dress + full length leggings + w/e) cos it's more or less my favourite but i checked through the tyylilyyli tag and it looks like i hadnt. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ah well. here's a face close up selfie from the walk home via instagram:

tänään on vähän turha päivä. ollaan molemmat lähinnä murjoteltu enkä ole saanut aikaiseksi muuta kuin hei tämän ja juuri sain pistettyä ruokaostokset läpi. vähän hirvitti totaali mutta meillä oli esim öljy ja chillijauhe ja kumina ja cayennepippuri ja tiskiaine ja vessapaperi ja jumalaton purkki valmiiksi murjottua valkosipulia menny kaikki loppuun samaan aikaan. sitten kun niitä on uudet nii ei tartte ostaa pariin viikkoon/kuukauteen uudestaan. huomenna vois varmaan pestä pyykkiä, ehkä yrittää ommella tai ainakin aloittaa ompeluprojektia tai yrittää kirjoittaa jotain tai vaikka siivota. tehdä jotain semi-järkevää eikä vaan istua tässä ja tuijottaa jotain tyhmää internettijuttua. vois varmaan katsoa vähän orphan blackiä ja virkata lisää mun mega mageeta kallohuivia.

today's been a bit of a waste. we've both been in a crappy mood and i've managed to do fuck all except write this (just about) and put the online food shop through for delivery tomorrow. the total was a big scary but but but we had run out of basic stuff like veg oil and chillipowder and cumin and cayenne pepper and giant jar of minced garlic (cos i'm lazy) and toilet paper and washing up liquid and deodorant at the same time. we won't have to buy them again for at least a couple of weeks / months depending on the item. tomorrow i'm gonna try to do some laundry, maybe some sewing / get started on my new sewing project, or try to write something or at least tidy up a little bit. do something semi-productive and not just sit here stearing at dumb internet shit. i might watch some orphan black before bed and continue crocheting my super cool skull scarf.

we scream in silence ♫ ♪

erittäin keltainen asukuva lauantailta kun kävelin juna-asemalta kotiin aamu-kahden maissa jee.

kaikki vaatteet primark, paitsi kengät: new look, kassi: monki, kaulakoru: ebay ja rusetti: oma tekemä

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a very yeeellow OOTD picture from saturday, taken as i was walking home from the train station at 2am...
everything primark except shoes: new look, bag: monki, best evs necklace: ebay and bow: homemade.

mie kävin lauantaina lontoossa. keskusta lauantaina on helvettiä. varsinkin kun yrittää oxford streetillä helteellä ja hups siellä onkin pride kulkue tiellä. ugh. KAIKKI IHMISET IKINÄ. krääh. mie yritin metsästää sitä simpsons mekkoa ja eihän sitä tietenkään löytynyt eikä mitään muutakaan niin kivaa että ois raaskinut ostaa, ja sitten Meni Hermot. kävin sit covent gardenissa selaamassa forbidden planetissä eikä sieltäkään tarttunu mitään käteen. (melkein ostin the wicked + the divine vol ykkösen mutta mitäs jos joku osti sen lahjaksi??) kävin sit nurkan takana the dinerissa yksin syömässä meksikolaisen burgerin ja snickers pirtelön ja sitten kadutti kun ne oli aika kalliita ja vaikka olivatkin molemmat nannoja mutta ei välttämättä ihan niin nannoja (oma burgeri on melkein parempi.) nyt vähän harmittelee etten käyny hyde parkissa ei-pride queer piknikillä mutta kun luovutin sen simpsons mekon suhteen ei ollu yhtään sosiaalinen olo (itkin kaikki meikit pois kun vitutti ja harmitti niin paljon) sieltä covent gardenista mie sitten lähdin dalstonii päin power lunches puljuun kavereitten keikalle / läksiäisiin kattomaan hyviä bändejä ja hengaa tyylilyylien kaa ♥ ja siinä päivä parani ♥ (paitsi ystini e kyrsii jonnin verran vieläkin kun se tuli säätää mun rintsikoita ilman lupaa. jumalauta nainen! ei ilman lupaa! senno ecto gammat! ugh.) kaikki bändit oli NIIIN HYVIÄ ja mie olin hyvä tyttö enkä juonu mittään ja mie otin paljon kuvia ja vahingossa myös tein videoita jotka mie editoin yhteen vähän niin ja näin sunnuntaina. nyt on tosi inspis bändijuttujen suhteen jee jee taas. valitettavasti vikan bändin jälkeen piti HETI juosta pois junaan, en edes kerenny ihan kaikille sanoa moicca. mie kerkesin ja ostin junaan itselleni happy meal koska mixei? ja pääsin kotiin asti noin 2h myöhemmin ugh. no mutta tässä teille mun hieno montaasi (en oo hei aiemmin editoinu mitään että cut me some slack) ja sitten parhaita paloja ottamistani kuvista. loput/kaikki löytyy täältä.

i went up to london on saturday. central london on saturday is pure hell. especially when you're trying to get to the other end of oxford street and pride parade sponsored by barclays is in the way and there's ALL THE PEOPLE EVER and you cant get on central line in tcr ugh. halp. i was hunting for the magical simpsons dress from primark with no luck whatso ever. and i didn't see anything else either that i like enough to purchase. i went to covent garden to look at comics in forbidden planet and didn't find anything there either. (almost got the wicked + the divine vol 1 but what if someone got it for me for my birthday?? also picked up new batgirl but put it back for unknown reasons) then i went across the street and 'treated myself' to a mexican burger and snickers shake at the diner and then kinda regretted it cos even though they were both yummy i'm not sure they were _that_ yummy (i think i prefer My Burgers) on hindsight i wish i'd gone to the not pride queer picnic in hyde park but when i gave up on the simpsons dress i felt pretty darn anti-social (and i'd cried all my make ups off, including foundations yay!) after burgers i headed over to dalston to power lunches to see awesome bands at a friend's super secret going away gig she was completely unaware of ha ha and my day got a hell of a lot better. all the bands were SOOOOO GOOOOD and got to hang out with so many babely babes and i was good and didn't drink any boozes beyond a sip of kirsty's red stripe and i took lots of photos and even unintentionally filmed quite a bit and made a montage of it all on movie maker on sunday. i'm super inspired for band stuff again, of course. i had to run off straight after actual crimes finished to catch the last train home and i bought a happy meal for the train cos why not? here's my first evs montage + some highlights of the photos i took. you can see Everything HERE. oh and regarding the video, i wish wish wish i had filmed more of big joanie and good throb, but i'm dumb and didn't think of it D: i wasn't actually intending to do anything with any of the videos cos my camera is not very good, but it turned out sounding not that bad and well... next time?

BIG JOANIE

FIGHT ROSA FIGHT

GOOD THROB

ACTUAL CRIMES

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